There is no gray area when it comes to salvation, & it has been my observation that a lot of us Christian's use what I call creative interpretation in order to justify their personal feelings instead of denying their flesh. The Lord has given us a guidebook (The Bible) by which we must live, and abide. We must pray for wisdom, & discernment before we read scripture, and we must be a part of a good bible based church.
Life is always going to have it's ups and downs but we have to remember to live our lives as uncompromising examples, so that others will see our light's shine, not wavering, uncertain, halfway Christians willing to
compromise with the way of the world. When you were in sin you were "all in".
Then you should be "all in" with salvation.